CLASSICIL

One last read to commemorate

2011-05-16T17:51:00.000+07:00

I have a bad habit.
Cross that. I have bad habits, regarding about reading.

First, I read the beginning (of a story, and usually a romance story) and get agitated after a few paragraphs. Then, I will jump to conclusions, and read randomly just to satisfy my conclusions.

Second, I read only fanfics *sighed* with quite an “interesting” choice of romance pairings *double sighs*

Well, nothing is wrong with having quite a “troublesome” choice of pairing. But, it will become a bad thing when I limit my readings to fanfics. Especially with my picky-for-fluffy-scene habit.

Other problems came when I started to feel I have not enough time to read (or satisfying this bad habit of mine) and started to neglect my primary priority, which is my family.

With Andri and Shosty that I have to take care about, hygiene of the house, effectiveness in our plans and schedule, my role of making sure that our plans go on the right tracks, practicing piano and cello, upgrading my teaching skill, upgrading our communication skill, etc etc (there are so many on the list) I practically have no time to read fanfics.

When I force myself to read, I become lazy to do other things. And since this hobby of searching-the-fluffy-scene is really time-consuming, I began to neglect my surroundings. And I know this is a start for something bad.

Oh well… let’s say goodbye for this bad habit of reading fanfics (and scanning chapters, looking for smut) and actually find other ways to spend your precious (and scarce) time for yourself.

Dan, gw menghadiahi diri gw 2 hal untuk hal ini:
1. Fic terakhir untuk dibaca. Titled “Trials of Life.” Pairing tezuryo yang sukses bikin cekikikan.
2. A license to actually read some fanfics that I’ve been following recently. Tapi cuma boleh liat dari notice di imel, ga boleh scanning ke websitenya lagi.

Huff…

Things, kalo ingin gaya

2009-11-30T14:14:00.003+07:00

Blakangan beberapa orang yang deket dengan gw lagi membicarakan soal barang-barang yang klo lu tenteng akan membuat elu terlihat lebih "high-level." Lalu, jadilah kami mulai memikirkan barang2 yang bisa bikin naek level... leveeeel uuuup!!!

Muncul ide beli iphone, ganti mobil, beli rumah, nambah pernak-pernik gadget, naikin level baju, de el el, de es be. Yah, klo mo diomongin ama dipikirin doang mah ga ada abisnya... adaaaaaa aja yang muncul dari satu barang ke barang laen. Pas cuman baju ama paling mentok iphone, pala masih seger buat puter otak soal gimana dapetin duit buat bayar dp and cicilan. Begitu mulai masuk mobil ama rumah, gw mendingan ga mikir dah... (--!)

Lalu, sembari browsing2 tadi, gw jadi ingat, gw punya bbrp gadget yang lumayan "ngangkat" lho... paling enggak, gw tau ada beberapa orang yang bangga karena mereka punya itu :P

1. Mac book. yang tipe apa ya? Lupa gw... tapi intinya gw punya mac book. Lumayan dong buat ditenteng2
2. Might mouse wireless. Keren juga kan klo lu ngopi di starbucks sambil bawa mac book dan ngatur2 mac book itu pake mouse dari jarak jauh
3. Cello! walau bukan gadget, tapi ini barang mahal juga kaaaan. Setidaknya orang2 yang gw kasi tau klo gw punya cello akan merespon: "wiiii, asik punya cello"

Baru nemu itu aja. They don't cease my temptation to buy iphone actually (walau gw seriously takut gw hanya impulsive over this). But really, I also come to think that... most people are busy thinking about what other people may think about themselves, rather than spending their time hovering over what other people have.

Kalau pun mereka sempet ngeliat elu dan memberi komentar yang seakan mengangkat lu (sesaat), apa juga ya artinya buat mereka? Does it give them inspiration? Ato bikin mereka iri trus kepengen kaya kita juga? Ato mereka ngebanding2in diri ama kita? Ato apalah...

Dan sebenernya, apapun yang terjadi dalam pikiran orang itu, kita ga akan tau sampe tu orang kasi tau kita kan? Jadi pointnya apa ya?

They're coming near!

2009-11-09T20:42:00.003+07:00

I've been in love with this two guys ever since the first time I saw their videos on Youtube. Hilarious humor, brilliant technique and wonderful creativity cooked all together in such a charming performance!

This is one of their famous videos yang bikin gw merasa termotivasi untuk take up challenges in life dan terus berusaha yang terbaik.

Dan mereka lagi world tour ke deket2 indo! >.< mau liat!!!

Spending money project! :))

2009-09-29T21:56:00.002+07:00

A few projects awaiting:

1.) buy a standing mirror. Seriously wanna have one in my bedroom. It'll help me dress up faster and easier. I do think I can't completely start my style experiment without having a mirror inside my bedroom first.
2.) buy a camera! Sony deh. Will soon go traveling. And a good camera might help me save the look of my style experiment later on...
3.) baru deh build the wardrobe basic lagi...

Dicoba lagi

2009-09-13T02:27:00.000+07:00

Dicoba lagi.
Terus berjalan saja.
Nanti juga akan sampai...

You are what you think

2009-09-01T23:46:00.004+07:00

I started this day looking for a good quote to cherish my day, then I stumbled upon this wonderful words:

You create thoughts, and everything in life begins with the quality of your thinking.

Ini menambah keyakinan gw akan quote2 yang sudah lama gw dengar (yg sering kali jadi terasa klise) "You are what you think" dan satu pesan dari seorang pemuka agama "hati2 dengan apa yang kau renungkan."

Indeed, mind is something SO POWERFUL that we actually have to be really careful with it. Sangat ga bijaksana untuk mengisi pikiran kita dengan segala hal negatif, alih2 berusaha mengembangkan pikiran yang berkualitas.

Akhir kata, gw meng-quote kata2 one of my inspiring friends. "Think before you think."

Second lesson with new teacher

2009-08-24T11:32:00.002+07:00

Second lesson. The target has been set. Hari2 penuh perjuangan akan segera dimulai kembali.

Ehm... here's the program. Berceuse sedang dalam proses dihapal, dan dalam 1 bulan etude 25/12 (yes, he gave me this number, despite my older teacher's refusal before) dan 10/5 (back to this black keys...) harus udah kelar. Thank you very much!

Scherzo, sembari jalan bersama etude, akan dipilih antara no 2 ato 3. Kata beliau, "not no. 4 yet." hahahaha

Jadi, persiapan Chopin comp dimulai. jeng jeng jeng...

First lesson with a new teacher

2009-08-11T22:27:00.002+07:00

A bit late, but I just had my first lesson with my new piano teacher, Mr. Levi Gunardi. And, kesan-kesan setelahnya: "two thumbs up!" and "I'm having fun!" And then,, just in time to add the spice, I got the news that Fariz (my little dearly "brother" at campus, and also a front line member of Mr. Mario's autism studio) has been transfered to the same teacher.

Currently TRYING to study Chopin etude 10/11 and 25/3, moga-moga berhasil :P

And, lagi baca Brisingr (I know it's a bit late, but blame my overly full daily schedule). Tiap kali baca ginian, gw selalu pengen punya naga!

Saphira...
Isn't she a total beauty?

Nulis blog

2009-07-27T00:12:00.000+07:00

Pengennya rajin menulis blog, tapi sering kali ga punya topik...

Hidup seimbang dan fleksibel dalam mengambil tindakan

2009-06-08T17:42:00.000+07:00

Yak, sesuai judul, itulah yang akan gw coba lakukan. Setelah beberapa saat yang penuh ketegangan mental, gw sudah merasa lebih sehat :D masih ada sisa2 yang akan dibereskan seiring dengan berjalannya waktu, tapi harusnya udah enggak sesulit sebelumnya (namanya juga udah tinggal sisa). Gw makin bersyukur dengan kehidupan gw saat ini, dengan adanya orang yang spesial di samping gw, temen2 yang care dan keluarga yang tetep ada when I need a place to call home. Lebih2, gw bersyukur udah bisa menjadi diri gw sendiri lagi :)

Sedikit random facts, gw blajar rachmaninoff prelude C# minor yang terkenal itu lhoooooo... hasil keisengan karena baru aja beli buku rachmaninoff :D I love his music!!!!

Reading book

2009-05-27T20:56:00.000+07:00

Lagi baca buku ini, dimana judulnya mengkombinasikan 2 kata favorit gw saat ini: "tidur" dan "menurunkan berat badan" (ehm, 4 kata seh)

Comment: menarik juga sih.

Lebih menarik lagi karena ternyata cover aslinya kaya gitu.

Kesan yang ditimbulkan sungguh... berbeda.

2 days more to the climax of my campus life

2009-04-04T08:06:00.000+07:00

Icil will be having recital hearing in Monday and is now currently spending my Saturday off work to have some quiet time for herself.

Half of myself doesn't really believe the fact that I'm now in the end of my undergraduate journey. Somehow, the memories of my first lesson is still so fresh in my mind, and it creeps me how time could fly so fast. And it creeps me more to know that maybe I'm not using the time given to me to the fullest yet.

But well, trying my best to be natural now, and believe that everything that's given to me is always the best I can have. And also keeping the mindset to what the future I'm holding on now.

New things

2009-03-07T20:38:00.000+07:00

I want new cdma... new camera... new handycam... and new spirit to record all the good memories I have everyday!

Nothing worth having comes easy

2009-02-06T11:53:00.000+07:00

the title is a quote taken from a story with the same title from author named GreyHope.

I've been growing this habit of reading again. Tapi kayanya habit membaca gw belum sepenuhnya bisa dibilang baik, karena gw kadang cuma scheeming dan cuma nyari bagian2 yang menurut gw menarik untuk dibaca. Alhasil, vocab pun tidak terlalu bertambah, analisis plot karakter dan description juga ga berkembang. I really should create a good reading habit neh. Klo cuma begini, mungkin kebiasaan mbaca gw hanya akan menjadi kegiatan buang2 waktu.

Well, quote tadi sedikit banyak membuat gw mengkontemplasikan perasaan gw blakangan ini. This past two months were a total roller-coaster ride for me. Not in the adventurous-life style, but more about my own feeling. I could be a total happy person in one day, then a silent contemplative one in the next day, a grumpy person in the morning and being totally patience in the evening, etc etc. There're too many opposite emotion happening in me in a short amount of time. And this is getting me tired...

Mungkin, sedikit tidak nyambung, but I feel like I'm currently seeking for something. Something that is suppose to worth so much in my life. Something I don't really know what, but I know will be something that will have a great deal in my life. Gw ga tau something-nya itu apa. Bisa aja pandangan hidup, bisa aja filosofi bekerja, bisa aja bagaimana gw melihat hidup ini ato apa yang gw cari dalam hidup... it can be whole lot anything. And yet I know it must be something worth so much for, as I've struggled to find it for quite some time, and still haven't found it. Well, nothing worth having comes easy.

At least for now, this weirdness really shouldn't stop me from doing things.

Icil

10 random facts

2009-01-31T23:38:00.000+07:00

Karena di-tag. Dan kebetulan tak ingin latihan tapi ga ada kerjaan.

The Rules!!!!

Each blogger must post these rules.
Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves.
Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their ten things and post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose ten people to get tagged and list their names.
Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’ve been tagged and to read your blog.

Musti random yah...
Icil is........

actually ga tau ntar mau nge-tag sapa aja. kayanya gw nulis kaya gini cuma buat iseng2 ajah.
pengen beli banyak baju buat dipake sehari2. ternyata sering impulsive buying dan beli baju2 yang pada akhirnya ga tau mau dipake kemana, ditaro di pojok lemari sampe akhirnya gw kardusin. akibatnya? gw kekurangan baju pergi.
pengen punya tempat tidur yang harus naek tangga dulu baru sampe ke kasurnya. modelnya di ambil dari salah satu setting film "sliders" yang suka gw tonton dulu.
punya barang kesayangan: guling. dikasi nama Raftel. dipeluk setiap hari.
belajar tidur malam sejak kelas 4 SD. gara2 suka nonton film2 seri yang ditayangin malem2, contoh: charmed, the x files, vampire expert, fist of fury, chinese ghost story, sliders, dll, dsb
dulu pernah ikut ballet. berenti karena disuru cium lutut aja enggak bisa.
suka nulis. paling banyak nulis fanfic. I owe it a lot. gara2 fanfic gw jadi terekspos ke pembelajaran bahasa inggris yang lebih baik.
baru ganti casing handphone cdma. karena bosen tapi memilih untuk ga ganti hape.
dulu suka ujan-ujanan.
sekarang ga suka kena aer dingin.

udah ah... ga tau mau nge-tag sapa. sapa pun yang baca ini musti bikin versinya sendiri :P

icil

Kebanyakan libur = bingung

2009-01-29T14:12:00.000+07:00

Jadwal kampus semester terakhir: senen masuk, selasa libur, rabu masuk, kamis libur, jumat masuk. Cuma libur 2 hari... tapi rasanya kebanyakan. Ternyata, saya tak suka libur kebanyakan, enggak tau mau ngapain.

Hari ini hari kamis. Libur. Mau latian piano tapi tidak semangat. Jadi malah internetan, liat2 videonya feltbeats dan corgi dalam berbagai gaya sambil berangan2 punya corgi juga. Bentar lagi si piong mo dateng kerumah. Mungkin babi juga dateng klo bisa dibujuk :P

Dan masih kepengen beli Nokia 2505... sama E63.

Dan karena tulisannya semakin tidak jelas, kita sudahi saja.

Inspiration

2009-01-25T21:25:00.000+07:00

Been wondering a bit... I'm a solo piano performance major. But I hardly feel inspired by watching references videos or recordings of solo piano performance.

I like attending recital/concert better. At least I can enjoy the atmosphere, and not just listening to the sound produced like in recording (or plus pictures in videos). And of course, you can at least have a contact with the performer. For me, it makes the music more human. Haha...

Sometimes, I feel more inspired of pursuing the music path I have chosen after I watch some movies, some funny videos, some wonderful soundtracks, some good stories, or some good photography. I think other people's dedication in their own chosen path inspired me greatly.

And for now, I am embarrassed at the fact that I was all talk, and don't mature at all. (Quote taken from dorama "Tada kimi wo aishiteru") Not yet. But I'm working on it.

Icil

A reminder

2008-12-30T23:20:00.000+07:00

The road we're stepping together now will be full of surprises
I can't promise you an easy journey
But please keep in mind, no matter what challenges we are going to face, externally or internally,
That we have to focus on what our aim is.

A reminder of TBB's official birthday :)

Love,
icil

A dog I want

2008-12-29T16:07:00.000+07:00

I always want to have a dog >.<

*pictures are taken from www.wallcoo.com and www.dog-breed-facts.com

It's a pembroke welsh corgi. A big dog in a small body, is between 25-31 cm tall and weighs around 14-15 kg. It's typically smart, easy to train, and healthy, but prone to obesity and back problem. It has lots of energy, so you may need to make sure it gets enough amount of work out. It barks a lot tho (will need to work on training it) and guess it's one of it's quality as a good watch dog. Colors are varying from black, tan to white (but I like the tan ones better).

What makes me want it? That chubby body and small legs!!!! It's soooo cute!!!!

I'd like to have one, one day. But gotta make sure that I'm capable of giving all it needs, healthy food, health care, training technique, and of course my time and love.

OH, I have a name in mind. It's Shosty :P

icil

Some random entries

2008-12-26T15:21:00.000+07:00

ADJECTIVE OF THE DAY: impatient

Nyari template buat blog aja kog susah. Udah ga nemu2, koneksi internet lemouts, pas ketemu ternyata ga bisa diaplikasikan ke blog-nya. Perjuangan yang panjang --" Yah, tapi beginilah hasilnya ^^;

Btw, libur telah tiba dan waktunya latian intensif dimulai lagi. Seperti biasa, I'll post my current programs here:

BACH - WTK book I no. XIII
SCHUBERT - Sonata in A Major, D. 664
LISZT - Sposalizio, Les Jeux d'eaux a la Villa d'Este
GINASTERA - Sonata no. 1 in C Major, Op. 22

Rencana konsernya: Senin, 20 April 2009, di Gedung D UPH. Kalo semua berjalan lancar, datang yaaaaaaaaaah ^____^

Dan klo semester lalu gw pake nickname "icilkovich" karena gw maen lagunya shostakovich, semester ini gw pake "iciliszt" deh.

Met liburan semuanya *hugs*
icil

Music can't lie. And I can't lie to it either.

2008-10-18T22:32:00.000+07:00

As a performer wanna-be, I've encountered and will be encountering many recitals; solo or ensemble. And one thing I've taken interest lately is that music can't lie. And the same time, you can't lie to it either. What does it mean?

When you were feeling down, or when you're not feeling up to the cheerfulness around you, a simple happy smile can deceive people around you for a while. It may not work for a long term, but people won't notice your feeling at the first time. Or when you were working and you have to do a presentation while feeling blue, some happy gestures will help you to cover that.

But in music, especially performing, I noticed that you can't lie. The sound you produces will represent your current condition. It will tell the audiences whether you are happy, sad, worried, not in the mood, angry, annoyed or even empty. And, no matter how hard you try to cover it, people will still notice.

Maybe, the professional musicians know how to deal with this... hiding your own feeling and presenting the correct mood for each music they played. As for me, I'm still learning in this area. And yearning to know more about how to manage my own feeling during performing.

Cheers, icil.

It's blogging time

2008-09-13T01:29:00.000+07:00

*huge grins*
Well, it's about time to have your own corner to talk about anything.

So, this is my blog, CLASSICIL. Simply titled like that because I live in CLASSICAL music world and my nick name is ICIL.

Later on I'll write more about music and living in musical world. Curious? Stay tuned :)

See ya,
icil